Thursday, 30 September 2010

People... Sigh...

There are times when you wonder about the people around you;

The other day I was driving home from work and I see a woman in an older model car broken down on a main road during the height of traffic.  I was quite vexed at the situation.  I wanted to stop and help but I had started work early that morning and did not get to spend a lot of time with my family,  in particular my daughter whose bed time was quickly closing in.  As I waited for the light to change, I considering whether to pull into the parking lot a head of me, walk back and help this person get their car off the road,  or do I just tell myself; "I do not have time", and hope that someone else will come along and help out.  The sad part was that I actually struggled with this, and if the light hadn't of taken forever I probably would have kept on going.  I then had a vision of my wife being stranded somewhere and I would hope that someone would have enough decency to stop and help her out.

So needless to say I pulled into the parking lot, parked my truck and headed towards the broken down car.  I get to the passenger side window and look in.  She is talking on her cell phone and has either failed to notice my presence or chosen to ignore me.  I proceed to knock on her window getting ready to ask if she would like me to help push her car into the parking lot.  She fails to acknowledge me and I am getting a little miffed.  So I knock on her window again and I follow this with "HELLO!"  She takes the time to move the phone to her other ear and give me the irritated wait your turn look with a bonus Index Finger point.  I stood there for a couple of seconds in shock.  This phone conversation was so important that she could not ask the person to whom she was talking with to hold on for a second, or maybe even call them back so that she could assist me in getting her jalopy off the road.  That she could stop inconveniencing the by now over 100 people including myself.  I took time out of my day to try and help this obviously self involved individual.  All I managed to accomplish was to receive a finger wagging from a real winner and many confused looks from passerby's as I walked back to my own vehicle.

 I often ponder whether I am doing enough?  I am pretty sure most of us ask ourselves these similar questions;  Do I spend enough time with my kids?  Do I do my fair share around the house?  Do I contribute enough to society?  And if you don't at some point ask yourself similar questions, then you are either a selfless saint and I raise my glass to you, or you are a real winner.

 I never stop trying to be a great dad, a terrific husband and a caring neighbor.  I hope that things work out for my kids and that when they become teenagers they don't hate me as much as people say they will, just because they are teenagers.  That my wife will always love me despite my video game addiction and my hearing deficiency that inexplicably comes and goes.  I never plan on the hearing loss it just seems to happen, sometimes for the better.  But I find it harder and harder having faith in my fellow man these days.  I truly believe in giving people the benefit of the doubt.  Tho lately they have been proving me wrong more often than not.  I just hope I don't completely lose my sense of fellowship and become one of those people who just keeps going on about their life ignoring everything and everyone around them.  I pity anyone who has crossed that threshold.

I know I do enough for my family.  Well I am pretty sure I do enough.  The only way I can gauge whether I am doing a good job being a good person is by using my barometer.  The barometer that i use to guide all my important decisions in life.  Choices that are not always easy, where there is no clear cut right or wrong just a path to choose.  That barometer is my family.  And by the looks of it, the future is sunny and clear with just a the odd chance of hearing loss.

Monday, 27 September 2010

How it all begins

I sit here in my living room with my 2-week-old son at 2 AM attempting to quell his hunger.  He is chugging back this foul smelling formula as if it were an ice-cold beer.  How things change.

How we go from enjoying the delectable flavors of lukewarm powdered formula to the savory taste of Kilkenny at room temperature, or a deliciously ice cold Sleemans on a hot summers day.  How we go from being a full time gamer with a full time job. And now I am a part time gamer, a full time husband, a full time father of two with a full time job.   Finding the opportunity to be a gamer as of late has been to say the least quite an undertaking.

To be honest. I have not been trying very hard to get on my Xbox.  Lack of motivation due to the erratic sleeping behavior of the little guy, has made the desire of going online fade to the very back of my thoughts.  With a 2 year old running around discovering anything and everything.  A wife recovering from the 9-month beating she received from the 9.5 pound soccer player in her belie.  And myself recovering from a job related injury.  We do not like to do things half way. 

When we had my daughter 2 years ago we braved the horrid 2 months of
colic, my daughter was a trooper the poor thing and I doubt I even turned the Xbox on during that period.  Then Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2 came around.  I was in line the night before the release date.  By 1 am I was playing the campaign. By 5 am I had finished the campaign and gone to bed.  I got to play quite frequently.  My wife always encouraged me to play.  She still does.  Yes I am one of the lucky few, whose wife encourages...  NAY!  Insists that I play my beloved video games.

Prestige Edition

How things have not changed.  Call of Duty:Black Ops is due out on November 9th, 2010.  I have already ordered the Prestige Edition to be delivered to my doorstep the date of release.  And Yes I do believe I will finish the campaign the very same day.  Unless my family needs me of course.

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